underapprciated

ah... i'm feeling like she's taking me for granted

this is new to me
i haven't felt this way in a really long time

i don't even know where to start
but i can start with what she wrote to her friends
this morning

she told them that she hasn't had as much fun
as she did last friday
no offense to me

i mean... i don't understand that
no offense to me?

i think that means
she's not trying to hurt my feelings
but she hasn't been having much fun with me lately
and friday
eventhough it felt like a normal entertaining party
was such a great time
compared to the times that i have provided to her

i guess she's comparing the fun she has with her friends
with the fun that she has with me

i think that's terribly unfair don't you think?

i think it is. i can have so much fun with my friends
but i would never compare them with the fun that i have with her
that would just be unfair

the type of enjoyment that i have with them
is compeletely different from the enjoyment
that i have with her.
why would i even send out an e-mail telling people
"i don't want to her her feelings, but i haven't had that kind of fun from Carolyn in a really long time"
"thank you very much for showing me what i've been missing."

although it's true
fun with friends is something beautiful
it can never be compared with fun with a loved one.